i'm angry...
i'm angry with life
its one thing to not be able to meet someone u like
its another to meet someone who has already found somebody before u met them
but what do u do...when u find somebody u really care for...but they won't let u in...and they won't care back...
i don't know when was the last time i was pissed...or probably i've been pissed the last few weeks...but i havent let it all out...
i am more so angry because its not like she's happy and i'm just butting into her life...she won't let happiness come to her...and then she cribs as to why she's sad...
it reminds me of the whole story of the drowning guy who refuses to board a boat coming out of nowhere coz he says god will save him...and then when he dies and asks god why didnt he save him...he says dude...who do u think sent the boat
i'm angry because she was probably my boat...and while it seemed she was coming to rescue me...it seems she was just floating nearby and i had just raised my hopes up...
i'm angry because i think of her all the time...and i mean all the time...but i cant see her thinking abt me...
i'm angry because its not a toy that a bully has taken who i can fight with to get mine back...
i just hope that its because she doesnt like something in me...that way atleast there's a reason i can understand
i'm just angry now...very very angry...
and sad...and heartbroken...
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"what do u do...when u find somebody u really care for...but they won't let u in...and they won't care back..."
I can't fully understand ur loss and ur pain..all I have to say is -u have to accept it the way it is..u can't force some1 to care for u or make inroads into someone else's life..
May be u deserve better..may b something better is in store for u..take care..cheeeerrrr uppp :)
it took 26 years to find this one :P
so she's not happy where she is right now and yet not letting u make her happy? Then u need to leave her alone...let time n space decide wuts best for her and for u.
Keshi.
yeah i know she's got her own problems to sort out
but my problem is i'm not in the frnz region...i like her...i wanna be part of her life...and hope that happiness comes to us
but for now heartbreak hotel it is...i already had a very bad lower back pain...and now i'm feeling all pukey and sad...last time i had this was after my first break up which was a relationship of two yrs go sour...this is barely 8 weeks...and its not even a relationship but this hurts more...
anyways as they say u shudn't enter this game if u dont have the guts to lose...
thats why i usually prefer just physical reltaionships...they are very simple :P
but on the other hand they dont give wat one needs more...love
"i'm angry because she was probably my boat...and while it seemed she was coming to rescue me...it seems she was just floating nearby "
Maybe u need to stop flaying ur arms around and swim away to another boat nearby..then she will see/realize what u mean to her..
Sorry for sounding like that but sometimes ppl only realize ur value when u take them off the pedestal and not give them so much attention..Or if u give someone else close to her more attention that shud work..
@B thanks...yeah i know the games of love...and if this were a problem of not enough jealousy...the remedy that u have suggested would have worked...
unfortunately she's a character from my books whose stepped into the real world...and as much as we would like u to believe that the author controls his characters...its not so...she is an extension of me...and if i were to tell u my problems u'd think ha...how simple it is to solve them...but not for me...not for her...her life and the choices she has to make are very simple...u cud make them for her and she'd be happy...but then u haven't gone thru what she has in life...for her to make those decisions is going to be tough...
for us to be happy...is going to be tougher...
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