not that i havent said this before...
but this time...i can prove it
till about a month and a half back...
i had seemed to have found the girl i had been waiting for all my life...my swan...
job was going okish...the only piece of the jigsaw which seemed to need a little working
and by the next month's pay my bank balance would have been positive enough to give that basic level of comfort where you feel you can afford an expensive drink without having to think twice about it.
And then there is today
The girl is lost in her own world, her own conflicts...between her world and mine...there is but just a mumbling of words sometimes...i have no idea wats playing on her mind and heart...and i doubt she knows watz on in mine
The entrepreneurial venture bro was in...has shut down and the bad economy means till about three months back the people who were willing to pay double his wages...don't even have an opening...which also means that we are in a precarious situation given the high home loan emi which has to go out each month...and all our resources need to be pooled in to ride out the drought...
And granpa passed away last week...which hath brought with itself much grief and other issues...
Funny how in a month the tide can change so bad...u think that now finally the jigsaw is going to solve and u find somebody messes the pieces up all again...and u wonder whether its all in vain...whether it will ever solve...whether there will be a time u will say hey life's good now
but whoever's messing up my jigsaw...if they think that one day i'm gonna give in...well they don't know the khukhraan blood in me...i will fight the battle...i like the taste of blood...and i will either win or go down fighting...u keep trying to mess up the jigsaw...i will find ways to solve it...
gud luc to u...life...gud luc to u
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life sure is a vicious circle.. if it has da "Downs".. it sure has da "Ups" as well.. itzz a lifetime process of solvin da puzzle,, cozz itzz only tat many pieces v can put at a time.. :-)
wish u luck,, sure all wil b well,, Again.. tatzz how it alwayzz goes.. :-)
awww...shit happens and it all comes together, dun I know!
Sorry to hear abt ur granpa's passing, HUGS!
Abt the girl...mmm..give her some time n space mebbe?
TC and yes never give up!
Keshi.
hey smiley...yeah its jst abt weathering out the down till the up comes...
hey Kesh...ya was a nice ol chap...went at 88...i'm happy for him..he's at peace now...
ya trying to do that...let her figure out whatever she needs to in peace...while still trying to be there for her just in case she needs to reach out...but its emotionally a very demanding and uncertain region to be in
now we can count an ingrown toe-nail as an additional shot :P
"Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans"
I like ur never-say-die spirit..keep fighting :)
i hope u get the girl of ur dreams and all ur other issues r resolved at the earliest :)
Goodluck!
@Swats...ameen...and thanks for the wishes for granpa
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